Tough day today Mum, you'll know what I'm talking about if you've been looking down, I am so so so very sorry for being such a fool, no fool like an old fool.... I continue to disappoint you, yet all I ever wanted was to make you proud, Nigel is a far better person than me, I just don't seem to learn do I, so sorry Mum, after everything you did for me, I'm so sorryu to let you down. I love you forever and hope one day I can make it up to you and make you proud, always too little too late I know, so sorry love always xxxxxx